You are looking for authenticity. Authenticity of and for yourself. Authenticity in your connections. Authenticity in your beliefs and stories.
Authenticity does not mean that everyone will see, meet, or be ok with the real you.
You may not even be ok with the real you.
This is your journey. Your journey to yourself.
Interconnection includes interconnection within yourself. Just like the ocean is contained within the drop, so the universe is contained within you. The interconnection of the cosmos is woven within you.
Love yourself. Love the you that you find on this journey. The one who seems different. The one who doesn’t fit in. The one who your heart is always leading you to.
You are ready. This journey inward to your heart, your emotions, and your belief is about remembering. Remembering the authentic blueprint that is in your soul.
Let love in. Especially that love that you push away because you feel unlovable. Let yourself be loved.
You are love in motion.
Your foundations that you thought were quite solid are breaking apart as you release old beliefs. It does not mean you are doing anything wrong. In fact, it means that you are doing things right if you are able to trust enough to allow these old beliefs to release.
But you feel off balance because releasing means that space is opening up in your life. Which means you get the chance to work on you.
And many times, you would prefer to not work on you.
So, to bypass your own work, you may take on responsibilities that aren’t yours to carry. Many of you also have wounds that encourage you to stabilize yourself through these responsibilities.
When you came here, you remembered your connection to source. Most were well-cared for providers. Many felt safe and secure.
But in this human life, wounding is common. As you grew, your understanding of your connection to source faded. You were encouraged or required to become responsible for things and people around you - keeping the peace, making others ‘happy’, filling an emotional need for others. None of these which you were actually responsible for. And yet, every time something did not go well, someone was not happy, you took this on as if you had failed a responsibility.
Your first responsibility is to be you; to be the you who your soul came here to be. And if that involves a big FU to the world, then so be it.
The world will not come crashing down if you become you. Your relationships will probably not come crashing down if you do it. And if they do, they were not founded on you being you; they were founded on you being the puzzle piece that completed another while you remained uncompleted.
It is not egoic to be who you came here to be.
It is egoic to not be who you came here to be.
If you feel far from you, far from your purpose, know that you are allowed to rebirth.
Do you feel stuck? Perhaps nothing you’re trying is moving or, if it is, it feels like it is taking everything you have to move 6 inches. And it is not just one area of life - it is all the parts, all the time.
And yet inside, you have so many ideas. So many hopes and dreams. So many things wanting to move forward. So much internal pressure to Just. Do. Something.
Inside, we're hurtling towards change. Outside, we're stuck in traffic gridlock with miles of orange barrels on either side of us and a broken-down car somewhere ahead of that has stalled forward movement.
The yin/yang of it all is fostering anxiety and dissonance. In us and in those around us.
So, what are we to do?
Well, we can wait it out. Practice mindfulness. Breathe. We know all traffic jams eventually come to an end.
Yeah right. I’m not feeling that either! There’s too much ‘wound up’ inside me. Instead, it feels like a better time to find the flow and go with that. Wherever it is.
Perhaps for you, it is getting off the beaten path of life and take the scenic route. Visiting a park might not get you any closer to your destination but neither will sitting at a standstill in traffic. And you’ll probably feel significantly better.
Perhaps for you, it is doing some tasks in your home. Organize that messy cupboard that frustrates you every time you need to look for something. Paint that wall a new color. Deal with whatever is on your ‘to-do’ list. Again, it might not get you any closer to your destination but when things start moving again, you’ll be ready.
There’s two interesting aspects to this.
A few months ago, we were in the opposite space. Internally things were stuck for many of us but externally, things were flowing for some individuals. Those experiencing ‘flow’ had done some of this same sort of pre-work. They’d gotten organized, rested, and set things up so that they were ready when things started flowing.
Secondly, in feeling into the Energy Overview for 2023, this ‘stuck period’ showed up but starting more in the September/October time frame. While perhaps this means we will have a longer ‘stuck’ period, it actually feels like things are speeding up and we may move through this more quickly as well.
I once worked with someone who believed that every obstacle would give way if you just kept bashing at it long enough and hard enough. I found that just leads to a lot of head bashing and emotional bruises.
When we get right up close to an obstacle, it appears like a solid wall in front of us. But if we step back far enough, and look around, we will find there’s flow happening someplace that will take us around or through or to our next step.
It is ok to step back.
It is not quitting or failing to step back. Sometimes, stepping back is literally the first step to moving forward.
Be gentle with yourself. Be gentle with others. There’s a lotta angst in the system and at the system.
We came here for some reason.
For each of us, our soul, came to this earth, at this time, to experience life through the physicality of our human body.
What is your why?
We all have threads and themes that help to define our why. But, for most of us, we’ve lost sight of them over the course of our life.
How can we lose sight of the threads and themes of why we came here?
It happens because of the conditioning around our life experiences.
Perhaps you were consistently praised for being smart. You were rewarded for good grades. You were encouraged and supported to go to college and excel in certain programs.
You also loved taking pictures. You had an innate sense of how to get the best photograph. The perspectives you brought out were unique. You were encouraged in your hobby, but it was clear it should remain a ‘hobby’ and not take you away from your ‘real pursuits’.
Ten, twenty, thirty years downstream, you are very likely to be in a career related to all that schooling and you are just as likely to not be pursuing your gifts in photography.
The influences of our home, schools, churches, families, friends, media, marketing, and news communities all conditioned us to behave in certain ways. These influences became the stories that we internalized and we still hear those sound tracks playing in our mind.
We’re being asked to consider new stories for ourselves. Stories that stretch us and open us to new possibilities. Stories that help us explore, and find, those threads and themes that are part of our authentic why.
To allow in new stories, we also need to release old ones. It is truly a season to notice and question everything about ourselves and the stories we hold so unconsciously that they feel normal to us.
Why do I push myself on a project, staying up late until I’m exhausted, and my eyes won’t stay open? Is it because somewhere I learned that rest must be earned?
Where did my feelings about image and appearance come from? Is it because somewhere I learned that body image is connected to the approval of others?
This path of questioning could go on for a while but the point is not these specific questions, it is noticing your own questions. Why the heck do you believe that? Where did that story come from? And do you still want it?
We start with ourselves. And soon, we will begin to find ourselves asking similar questions about our community, our systems, and our institutions.
The current energy flow has us asking a lot of questions. And that is part of our ‘why’ at this time in earth’s history. We came here to help create change.
And we’re ready to make some change.
You are ready for your next step.
How does that feel in your body?
It feels ugh!
For some those words feels like a heavy blanket of dread. You are burned out, under water, and feel like you are flailing and failing. You’re thinking that your next step needs to be a nap.
That’s perfect actually. If this is you, your next step is to go inward, to your own internal landscape. Your next step focuses on rest and integration, as well as the opening of your heart and connection to joy.
Your internal light feels small and flickery. But it is actually quite large - it is just that the flame has been turned down too low. The energy of love is seeking to expand within you. You only need to allow yourself to let love expand in you. To begin to let yourself be loved. And this begins by letting yourself love yourself.
It feels exciting!
For others, you heard ‘you are ready for your next step’ and you let out a woohoo! You have been preparing. Contemplating. Planning. You have lots of ideas! You are ready to GO! Your work will be external.
Your next step is to do the next right thing in front of you.
But your light feels like it might explode into a wildfire. Your flame is on high and you need to ground and focus that flame because otherwise you run the risk of burning up the very things you are seeking to create.
Also, sometimes you can lose yourself in the busyness of creating. You need to intentionally connect to your heart light and let yourself be filled with that love. The work of doing requires you to keep filling yourself up. You can’t pour from an empty cup.
Find the flow
Whether you are being called internally or externally, follow the path that opens naturally. If you try to push the river, it isn’t going to go anywhere. We need to learn to find the flow.
Jump in the deep end. Take the leap. Step into the flow. Make your move. Bet on yourself.
The energy has momentum in it without being too choppy or chaotic. If you’ve been making plans, pondering ideas, and drafting out next steps, well … it is time to take some action on those. The energy is ready to support action.
If you’ve not done much planning this spring, you might not have much to put into the flow. However, you can optimize the choices that you do have by taking action steps on the next right choice in front of you.
It can feel easy to overthink and overplan. That’s not going to serve you well right now.
This doesn’t mean to be rash or take big risks. But it does mean avoid aiming for perfection and, instead, start with what is ‘good enough’. Not sloppy stuff, not bad stuff. Good stuff. Start with what is ‘good enough’.
‘Good enough’ allows you to test the waters. ‘Good enough’ allows you to get started. ‘Good enough’ allows you to build some momentum.
Once you have some movement, it will be easier to shift directions and fine-tune the focus. Especially once we head into the fall where the sticky energy is going to feel like gridlock driving in a construction zone.
Now’s the time.
What can you put into play this week?
How’re you feeling about your life’s journey?
Recently, lot’s of folks have been telling me that they feel one of three things:
Our path isn’t our career, roles, responsibilities, or the many ways that success gets defined by the world.
Our path is our soul’s journey.
We came here for some reason. For some purpose. Success is about being the fullness of who we came here to be.
It may seem really odd to link the words soul and success. But at the end of our life, we don’t look back on our career, roles, and responsibilities, we look back on our experiences, our purpose, our connections, and our impact.
We often use the transition from one year to the next as a time to assess where we are and to chart out the next year. However, the energy right now is calling us to a mid-year check-in.
This isn’t a time to do what others are telling us is right. This is a time to do the ‘right’ that is deep in our marrow; the right that we feel deep in our essence. Because this is our soul calling us to remember why we are here.
Charting our path starts with four questions:
These can usually be answered with a couple of words or a short sentence. Don’t analyze things too much. Just respond with whatever shows up first.
Sometimes it is easy to see an example. So here’s mine:
Happy charting. And remember, your journey is yours.
Every ending is a beginning.
And every beginning is an ending.
Sometimes we look forward to the change. Other times, we grieve the loss.
But there is no growth or transformation without beginnings and endings, endings and beginnings.
It can feel, at times, like endings and beginnings are discrete events we can point to in time. A job, baby, graduation, marriage, accident, loss, death, etc all have dates we use to keep track of them in our life. And yet, very few things have abrupt beginnings or endings.
Like stepping stones on our path, other experiences often proceed beginnings and endings. And, regardless of when or how endings and beginnings come, changes ripple out from them, often ricocheting through our entire life.
We really don’t have beginnings or endings.
What we have is the moment.
These moments which are so easy to miss because we’re looking forward or looking backwards. These precious moments which we string together to make our life.
Whatever the moment brings, we have the chance to acknowledge the moment. To embrace the moment. To experience the moment. To feel the moment. To be in the moment.
To be alive in the moment.