Feeling off-balance, like the ground is slippery and unstable?
We’re trying to hold onto the crumbling foundations of old beliefs while stepping into new beginnings. It just doesn’t work.
When we’re straddling between worlds like this, everything is off balance.
The energy of a whole series of retrograde planets is asking us to look at the shadow side of communication, power, trauma, and relationships. We’re being asked to look beyond the quick fix. To pull back the curtain of illusions and get to the root of the matter.
On the flip side of what can feel very heavy, is the opportunity for clarity, stepping into our inner power, allowing our voice to further emerge, and deep clearing and healing.
Stop trying to live between worlds. This is really a time to find your North Star - your values and truth. The hard part, for many of us, is that these may look wildly different than what we were brought up to believe.
The layers of programming that we’ve each taken in is staggering. While there has been very targeted marketing and spin in every system, most of what we grew up with wasn’t intentional. Instead, most was ‘that’s just the way we’ve always done it’ and ‘the good people’ sorts of stories and messaging.
Going deep into these layers isn’t comfortable because, at some point, we took those messages as ‘truth’ and let them become intertwined into our identity. Recognizing they are simply one perspective, and a perspective we don’t agree with, is step one.
But we can’t stop there or we’ll live in the in-between space with shaky foundations. It is like ripping out weeds. We have to pull these things out by the roots and then plant something else into the soil of our heart.
Check out this YouTube video on Three Themes for another way of looking at the current energy. This intuitive message uses cards and runes for the message structure.
You are looking for authenticity. Authenticity of and for yourself. Authenticity in your connections. Authenticity in your beliefs and stories.
Authenticity does not mean that everyone will see, meet, or be ok with the real you.
You may not even be ok with the real you.
This is your journey. Your journey to yourself.
Interconnection includes interconnection within yourself. Just like the ocean is contained within the drop, so the universe is contained within you. The interconnection of the cosmos is woven within you.
Love yourself. Love the you that you find on this journey. The one who seems different. The one who doesn’t fit in. The one who your heart is always leading you to.
You are ready. This journey inward to your heart, your emotions, and your belief is about remembering. Remembering the authentic blueprint that is in your soul.
Let love in. Especially that love that you push away because you feel unlovable. Let yourself be loved.
You are love in motion.
Your foundations that you thought were quite solid are breaking apart as you release old beliefs. It does not mean you are doing anything wrong. In fact, it means that you are doing things right if you are able to trust enough to allow these old beliefs to release.
But you feel off balance because releasing means that space is opening up in your life. Which means you get the chance to work on you.
And many times, you would prefer to not work on you.
So, to bypass your own work, you may take on responsibilities that aren’t yours to carry. Many of you also have wounds that encourage you to stabilize yourself through these responsibilities.
When you came here, you remembered your connection to source. Most were well-cared for providers. Many felt safe and secure.
But in this human life, wounding is common. As you grew, your understanding of your connection to source faded. You were encouraged or required to become responsible for things and people around you - keeping the peace, making others ‘happy’, filling an emotional need for others. None of these which you were actually responsible for. And yet, every time something did not go well, someone was not happy, you took this on as if you had failed a responsibility.
Your first responsibility is to be you; to be the you who your soul came here to be. And if that involves a big FU to the world, then so be it.
The world will not come crashing down if you become you. Your relationships will probably not come crashing down if you do it. And if they do, they were not founded on you being you; they were founded on you being the puzzle piece that completed another while you remained uncompleted.
It is not egoic to be who you came here to be.
It is egoic to not be who you came here to be.
If you feel far from you, far from your purpose, know that you are allowed to rebirth.
Do you feel stuck? Perhaps nothing you’re trying is moving or, if it is, it feels like it is taking everything you have to move 6 inches. And it is not just one area of life - it is all the parts, all the time.
And yet inside, you have so many ideas. So many hopes and dreams. So many things wanting to move forward. So much internal pressure to Just. Do. Something.
Inside, we're hurtling towards change. Outside, we're stuck in traffic gridlock with miles of orange barrels on either side of us and a broken-down car somewhere ahead of that has stalled forward movement.
The yin/yang of it all is fostering anxiety and dissonance. In us and in those around us.
So, what are we to do?
Well, we can wait it out. Practice mindfulness. Breathe. We know all traffic jams eventually come to an end.
Yeah right. I’m not feeling that either! There’s too much ‘wound up’ inside me. Instead, it feels like a better time to find the flow and go with that. Wherever it is.
Perhaps for you, it is getting off the beaten path of life and take the scenic route. Visiting a park might not get you any closer to your destination but neither will sitting at a standstill in traffic. And you’ll probably feel significantly better.
Perhaps for you, it is doing some tasks in your home. Organize that messy cupboard that frustrates you every time you need to look for something. Paint that wall a new color. Deal with whatever is on your ‘to-do’ list. Again, it might not get you any closer to your destination but when things start moving again, you’ll be ready.
There’s two interesting aspects to this.
A few months ago, we were in the opposite space. Internally things were stuck for many of us but externally, things were flowing for some individuals. Those experiencing ‘flow’ had done some of this same sort of pre-work. They’d gotten organized, rested, and set things up so that they were ready when things started flowing.
Secondly, in feeling into the Energy Overview for 2023, this ‘stuck period’ showed up but starting more in the September/October time frame. While perhaps this means we will have a longer ‘stuck’ period, it actually feels like things are speeding up and we may move through this more quickly as well.
I once worked with someone who believed that every obstacle would give way if you just kept bashing at it long enough and hard enough. I found that just leads to a lot of head bashing and emotional bruises.
When we get right up close to an obstacle, it appears like a solid wall in front of us. But if we step back far enough, and look around, we will find there’s flow happening someplace that will take us around or through or to our next step.
It is ok to step back.
It is not quitting or failing to step back. Sometimes, stepping back is literally the first step to moving forward.
Be gentle with yourself. Be gentle with others. There’s a lotta angst in the system and at the system.