Your foundations that you thought were quite solid are breaking apart as you release old beliefs. It does not mean you are doing anything wrong. In fact, it means that you are doing things right if you are able to trust enough to allow these old beliefs to release.
But you feel off balance because releasing means that space is opening up in your life. Which means you get the chance to work on you.
And many times, you would prefer to not work on you.
So, to bypass your own work, you may take on responsibilities that aren’t yours to carry. Many of you also have wounds that encourage you to stabilize yourself through these responsibilities.
When you came here, you remembered your connection to source. Most were well-cared for providers. Many felt safe and secure.
But in this human life, wounding is common. As you grew, your understanding of your connection to source faded. You were encouraged or required to become responsible for things and people around you - keeping the peace, making others ‘happy’, filling an emotional need for others. None of these which you were actually responsible for. And yet, every time something did not go well, someone was not happy, you took this on as if you had failed a responsibility.
Your first responsibility is to be you; to be the you who your soul came here to be. And if that involves a big FU to the world, then so be it.
The world will not come crashing down if you become you. Your relationships will probably not come crashing down if you do it. And if they do, they were not founded on you being you; they were founded on you being the puzzle piece that completed another while you remained uncompleted.
It is not egoic to be who you came here to be.
It is egoic to not be who you came here to be.
If you feel far from you, far from your purpose, know that you are allowed to rebirth.