​This human that is you is a very interconnected being. 
 
You are connected to source. To deep threads of love, belonging, and home. 
 
You are connected to higher consciousness. To the vast library of wisdom and experiences. 
 
You are connected to the cosmos. To the galaxies, stars, space, and the harmonic frequencies that flow between these.
 
You are connected to your planet. To the being of your planet and to all the beings on and within your planet.
 
You are connected to every other human. To a grid of human consciousness and the frequency of your heart energy.
 
You are connected to your timelines and lives, both physical and spiritual. To your ancestral generations, your past lives, and all the future ‘you’ that you already are and will become. 
 
You are connected to all the molecules you have encountered, and those that those molecules have encountered. You are entangled in eternity.
 
And, within all of this, you are unique. 
 
You are beautiful art.
 
You are a necessary melody in the tapestry of the universe.
 
You are you. 
 
And because of all these connections, you are interconnected with everything else. 
 
Intuition is nothing more than becoming aware of these connections.

​You’re not here to help everyone. That’s not even possible.
 
But you’re likely not even here to help everyone you can. Just because you can, doesn’t mean you should.
 
I know that sounds harsh but stick with me on this one.
 
Some people take on a victim mentality. They are not victims of crimes or assaults, but rather victims of perceived slights. Or they get themselves in situations and want someone to rescue them - again and again. My learning has been to avoid the drama and not take on the rescuer role.
 
In situations of actual need, there are often those squeaky wheels who get greater and more frequent help simply because they are squeaky. While we overlook the person who is quietly in much more need. My learning has been to triage and prioritize my energy towards those in most need.
 
Sometimes we need to put ourselves first, or, as the investment people say, pay ourselves first. A concept in the chronic illness world is around ‘spoons’ - how many spoons you have today and how you want to use those. The spoon theory is a helpful way to look at other situations as well. I used to put helping others first and, when I ran out of spoons, it was my needs that didn’t get met. This doesn’t mean that I don’t help others simply because I’m short on spoons. In emergencies, I work flexibly to dig deep into my spoons; maybe I skip some sleep but take a nap tomorrow or I pick up quality take out to get some nutritious food. But I can’t short my spoons day-in and day-out without verging into burnout or physical signs. And then I’m no good to anyone.
 
One of the biggest learnings for me has been ‘just because I can, doesn’t mean I should’. There’s an adage around giving projects to the busiest person because they’ll get them done. But this minimizes the opportunity and community responsibility for each person. We’re a world of 8 billion people. There’s lots of people who can help. We don’t need to take on everything that comes our way.
 
However, there is a group that I very often prioritize. I have felt this as a bit of calling for most of my life so this is not a suggestion for others to take on, but I am aware of others who feel similarly called and it can feel confusing on the surface until one recognizes the pattern.  
 
I oftentimes focus my energy not on those asking for help or in obvious need, but on the helpers, healers, and leaders. I do this in all sorts of ways. It may be as simple as a card, small gift, or words of encouragement. It may be informal coaching, sessions, or time to hold space for whatever is coming up. These aren’t usually one-and-done helps and it also takes time to also build trust, most often through repeatedly showing up. Many of these are longer term investments - I can think of some that span more than 5 years. I help them have more spoons to do the work that they do. And yes, there are those who do this for me for which I’m extremely grateful!
 
We’re in a season of change where there will be a lot of true needs and perceived needs. You can’t help everyone. You also need to help yourself. Within all of that, who are you called to help? Perhaps an individual, a group, animals, the land, or a cause.
 
I find the people who have the clearest idea of their interest, focus, and/or purpose in life also have the clearest boundaries.
 
Each of us is needed. Each of us has needs. Honor the calling and purpose within.
 

​Our hearts need to unlock. Our hearts need to unblock.
 
Many of us carry thick walls around our heart. 
 
We put them up for really good reasons, or so it seemed in the moment. We got hurt, betrayed, abandoned, minimized, abused, isolated, forgotten. Protection seemed important, even essential.
 
And then we experienced loss. Grief. Anguish. We let the walls get thicker, so we didn’t have to feel as deeply.
 
And then we read the news and learned of the ongoing atrocities committed by humans against each other, non-human beings, and the planet. And the frenzy incited by polarization to pit us against each other. We became overwhelmed. And we went numb.
 
Until, at some point, we realized that, in being numb, we’d also lost our joy, peace, and hope. And we wanted those back. No matter what it cost.
 
Our soul cannot experience the fullness of being human if we keep our heart in a box.
 
Unlocking my heart has been a long and ongoing journey. 
 
I spent some time trying to figure out why my heart was locked. Down lots of rabbit holes only to really learn that it was often due to a mixture of reasons. Trying to find ‘the’ reason stopped making sense. 
 
I turned my focus towards what would unlock my heart.
 
Painting and drawing helped quite a bit. These let me play with colors and explore shapes and textures. I experimented with different types of subjects and found a love of the abstract. It was a space I could get out of my head and just sort of be in the moment.
 
Reiki, tai chi, qigong, craniosacral therapy, neurochiropractic care, massage, myofascial work were also important because I was very disconnected from my body. These helped me connect inward and begin to learn to sense my body, notice my body, and feel my body. As I began to connect to my physical body, I was able to use that as an entry point to my emotional body.
 
For you, it may be music. Or yoga. Long conversations. Improv. Restoring old cars. Volunteering with the park system. Or, or, or.
 
The trick is to simply try something or some things. They’re all experiments, so know that if you don’t like it, you can stop – even midway through the first experience. ‘Do or do not, there is no try’ may work for the Force. But unlocking your heart is more of a spiral, rambling path. And you have full permission to explore the side trails as well.
 
It is your heart. You hold the key to it.
 

Energy pathways are opening and expanding.

Some of these openings are rooted in what we’ve intentionally released and let go of. Others are rooted in what we’ve lost or, perhaps, feel that have been taken from us.

Regardless of the path we took to get here, we are right now in the space between what has left and what is not yet. 

This space in between is a convergence filled with a harmonious frequency which allows us to pull things together and make things happen. It could be around relationships, new ideas, healing, creating, building, anything.

However, we do need to stay in the middle of this convergence as the edges of the frequency have some yin/yang differences, just like any spectrum or range.

At one end, we can get caught in the weeds trying to plan every detail before we get started. If this is your style, you need to know that it ain’t gonna happen. We’re learning as we go. We’re building the bridge as we walk across it. We’re hiking without a map. Pick a metaphor but they’re all the same. We need to trust the process and trust our gut.

At the other end, we can run from shiny object to shiny object and never get started, or be so overwhelmed that we sit on the couch and distractify. If this is your style, you need to know that we might get some kicks in the seat of the pants to get started. It may feel like the chair gets pulled out from under us. We’re gonna have to jump into the pool and start swimming. Again, pick a metaphor but they’re all the same. Time to get started.

Once we get started, we will find that ideas, resources, and connections will come to us. We’ll find intuitive ways to create. And while our work will need discipline and diligence, it will also be a fun work. Work that we find of value.

​The work of our purpose.
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Here's a recent video on YouTube - part 1 of 3 pivot points/invitations that are showing up now. ​

​Pschew! A bit of roller coaster energy right now. But importantly, underneath that, are opportunities for us to recognize, and release or move out of, old patterns that are no longer needed or no longer help us.
 
Practically, what does this look like?
 
You know that person that pushes your button? Or certain types of people who push your button?
 
What about the activity or substance that you use to calm yourself in certain situations?
 
How about the friend that you always reach out to first to initiate a get-together?
 
These are all patterns. Patterns are neither good nor bad, right nor wrong. They are simply patterns. Patterns only become problems when we become stuck, outgrow them, or they take us down paths that we’d like to change.
 
On the ‘fun’ side of the current energy, we will get the chance to break out of some of these old patterns.
 
On the less ‘fun’ side, we will get opportunities to actually see our old patterns. And, if you’re at all like me, sometimes I’m fairly appalled when I recognize my patterns which can even lead me into judgment and shame. Ugh! ‘Why do I still do that?’ ‘Why do I still let this happen?’ ‘Why haven’t I outgrown this?’
 
However, I’m a very different person than I was when I started those patterns. Those patterns may have kept me safe or were truly the best choice at that time in my life. Judging and shaming my younger self isn’t helpful.
 
Acknowledging that I can choose new patterns is.
 
As is recognizing that a future self may look back on my current patterns with a bit of raised eyebrows …